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[thaumasion]

His feelings towards certain NPCs.
These need not be accounted for and may not necessarily even be accurate.
These are his feelings towards these people based on canon events. #unreliablenarrator
'ware spoilers.


alisaie: favored partner in crime. if alisaie is making a bad decision, he's right there making it with her. enjoys her sentiments towards needless fussery, because he shares in them.

alphinaud: pride, respect, fear. recognizes the man he has become. never quite forgot the boy he almost lost. staying hands off is hard but ze tries. likes to watch him at work and readily admits he is a better man than ze.

estinien: personality clash, perhaps because there are a few things in which they are too similar. likes to make fun of him. expects to be made fun of back. thinks they work quite well together on the battlefield.

graha: hesitations and withdrawal. once they got along decently- young, naive idealists. now he strives to keep a measure of distance between them, because he cannot fathom someone giving of their life wholeheartedly for his. not once, not twice- thrice. could do with some proper communication but, well. talking of his feelings is not ze's strong point.

krile: respect and a little apprehension. she astounds him in many regards for her worldliness- seeming to have a way forward if not an answer. finds he gives her a trust he unconsciously does not give many. worries for her despite due to the events of sb.

lyse: misses her. does not write because he never knows what to write. learned how to punch by watching her but never truly asked for real guidance out of youthful embarrassment. thinks he'll do it when next he visits and finally gets the time, but life keeps him busy.

minfilia: regret. they had some parts in which they could not see eye-to-eye and he wishes he could've done something to avoid what happened but knew it was never his choice to make. he carries her and her will, always.

tataru: treasured and feared in equal measure. he gives her his trust because he must but he can never quite keep himself from looking for her in his peripherals. never has he felt so cold a rage as that moment in ishgard, nor so pivotal a sensation of pride in succeeding as her champion.

thancred: unspoken understandings. a relationship that never quite needed so many words because observations are enough. ze has never forgotten thancred's arrival against the lord of the inferno- both the good and bad. would grieve the loss of but would step over to see the mission done.

urianger: on the surface- forgiven, though perhaps not for the right reasons. has never really resented his underhanded measures because ze understands the necessity of doing what must be done- even if his own life is caught in the crossfire. in quieter, darker moments, he believes urianger thinks him expendable if the prize is good enough... and ze agrees.

yshtola: shies from in various ways. he will never be able to keep her from doing as she must and while he would never dream of trying, the fear of her loss on a subconscious level keeps him distant. he finds himself lacking around her.


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aymeric: well-intentioned but too optimistic. still, ze finds himself wanting that optimism to be rewarded and has no qualms about becoming the tool which sees it through. cares for deeply in a... prickly, abrasive way.

emet-selch & lahabrea: a forgotten part of his soul mourns the loss, but the sundered man cannot forgive. not the destruction, the manipulation or the callousness with which they have been treated. the ending is regrettable, but unavoidable.

hydaelyn/venat: cherished. long has ze known love comes in many forms- many of them painful and trying. through each trial and loss, he has never doubted her gentleness towards him nor have her intentions ever been in question. only in elpis did he learn to see the traveler over the goddess.

nanamo: of those who would laud him as champion for their peoples, nanamo alone evokes in him feelings of tenderhearted kindness. some days he wonders if it is her love for the people. others, he believes it is because he thought her lost.

wuk lamat: indulgent. he sees her burdened with potential but too naïve and untested. though he wishes the best for her, he fears for how she will endure the worst. wholly believes she will be incredible.

zenos: obsession. zenos awoke within ze something he does not easily accept yet finds himself desiring nonetheless. not only an equal but someone who, above all else, will always choose him first. and that is terrifyingly addictive.


wip.