Well, then we do not have to talk. You can take your time now, if you want to.
[ And then, because he’s deigned to put his guard down and admit something personal, she feels she should probably return the show of trust with one of her own. It makes her ridiculously happy to know what he’s told her; she wants to similarly make him happy. ]
I care little what we do. I only wish to see you for a while.
[ It’s as close as she’ll get right now to admitting she misses him. ]
[he reads well between the lines, having given others cause to do so himself, so it takes him but a moment to fully comprehend what has been offered. a little baffling given their history, truthfully, but... oddly warming, nonetheless.]
Within the bell. [is all he sends in response after a lengthy moment of consideration. in the back of his mind is the soft warning of another weakness being constructed by his own folly... but like a fool he cannot find it within himself to care.]
[ooc: and then the mental image of him doing an escort fate only to pick that mf'er up and sprint]
[ She’s actually surprised when he agrees to visit and immediately she begins wondering if this means he definitely understood her feelings loud and clear. It would seem so… and apparently they’re accepted? Truly?
Great. Now she’s nervous for some reason. While Ze contends with finishing up the work he’s taken on, Sarangerel contends with making sure her little cottage in the Lavender Beds is tidy and that she herself is presentable. She probably worries a bit too much about her own appearance, because she changes her outfit about four times before she decides her blush-colored nightgown and her thick night robe is enough. She does, after all, plan to make Ze relax and rest. She even prepares a small meal for him. ]
[He's true to his word, showing up before the clock can count in another hour. But whereas Saran has made efforts to look for the better, he has clearly just come in off the road- layered in sweat, coat dusted with grit from the road and a splash of something just dark enough to be suspicious on the greave of his boot.
It's there, on the steps to her home that he hesitates, wondering if he ought to have made an effort to neaten his appearance before arriving. If he ought to have brought something...
But in the end he chooses stubbornness. She had to have known he'd be finishing up one task or another- no rest for the likes of them and such. It's how he reasons away the nerves, knocking on her door and settling for propping his free hand on his hip to avoid the temptation to fold his arms and appear even more a foul-tempered lowlife.
[ Thankfully, Sarangerel did, in fact, expect him to be fresh from the odd jobs they have the tendency to pick up and so she isn’t all that terribly surprised when he appears on her doorstep looking every bit worse for the wear. She still answers the door with a small smile — albeit a sympathetic one — and only sighs in response to the state of Ze. She opens the door and gestures him inside regardless with no judgement. The cottage has seen her step in before in similar disarray, after all, and she can hardly be so hypocritical. ]
Take your greaves and boots off here though. It will be less to clean up if you do not track everywhere you have been inside the house.
[ She gestures to the mat and armor stand placed beside the doorway. Both are clearly not new, but at least there is no evidence of her own past messes on either still. The house is tidy. While Ze works on his boots, she steps behind him to remove his coat. Dusty as it is from the road, it can use a wash, but they can tend to that later. For now, it’ll go on the coat hanger. ]
You arrived sooner than I had expected. Were you already in the forest?
[He hesitates a breath when she opens the door, warm light flooding out onto her porch and bathing him in a triangle of it- like a barrier to the darkening skies signaling dusk. But it is not that which catches him but for the look of her, softer than he's ever seen- even that night in Ishgard- and welcoming. Unbidden his tail flattens to his side- indecision and uncertainty curling inside of his gut like nausea, bidding him to run. To turn back now whilst he still can, as though he is on the precipice of yet another dangerous cave rather than on the front-step of a comrade's home.
It lasts only a moment, that hesitation, for his stubborn pride has always won the day- even when in doing so it is a detriment. He steps inside and stares straight ahead, fixating on a point on the wall as she speaks. A part of him thinks to mention that removing his footwear will hardly do her impression of his current state any favors... but she would have known- and likely would have been the same at one point- so he does not say anything, making to oblige. And when she moves behind him to take his coat, he cannot help the flicker of tension that slithers down his spine, ears flicking up and backwards before straightening again. That he is ill-at-ease is obvious, that he is fighting to maintain a facade regardless even moreso.]
Escorting a merchant to Gridania. [Is all he grunts as he undoes his gloves so she can take his jacket without issue, wincing at the unexpected soreness that arises from the motion.] Wanted someone to keep the Ixali at bay. [He adds as a gracious point of elaboration, choosing not to add he ended up all but abandoning them as soon as the gate and the Wailers protecting it were within sight, payment be damned.] Not that we saw so much as a scratch mark in the dirt. [He mutters in afterthought as he finally drags his footwear off and sets it aside as bid, leaving his gloves draped in the heap with less care than he ought to have.] Where can I wash up?
is it cozy there? also do I owe you any other tags?
[ Sarangerel notices Ze is a little jumpier and terser than usual and she’s not quite certain why. He’s seen her writhe with post-climax euphoria with not a single stitch on her before; surely it can’t be her that’s causing him to be so skittish. She shrugs it off as a result of the stresses of their line of work and hums in acknowledgement to his tale. He was nearby. That explains his quickness then— or at least as far as she knows.
The notion that he might have been so eager to see her as to rush his last contract doesn’t enter her mind.
She allows him to dress down as he wishes to, without judging him or tsk’ing at him. Instead, when she comes back around to stand in front of him and he asks her about washing up, she reaches out to take his hands in hers, coming close enough to smell the dirt and sweat on him easily. ]
Slow down… Come.
[ She gives him a small reassuring smile and turns away then to lead him through the small house by the hand to the bathroom. She saw him wince earlier. Thankfully, in addition to a shower, she has a spacious bath in which he can soak his aching muscles. ]
[He cannot help it- so ill-at-ease and unfamiliar with the emotions he is courting now by being in her home- by coming to her when bid for as small a thing as being missed. In battle or lust he is practiced. In hostility and insult can he find cover. Here, where his efforts are focused upon making peace- on brushing past established boundaries- he is unnerved.
She, unnerves him, in a way both vexing and humbling.]
Terrified I’ll botch the job? [The reply is as light as he can make it, thinking back to their shared night in Ishgard when she took to finger-combing his hair with a tenderness that did not belong in the early stages of this evolution of their relationship. He had pitted it to post-coital euphoria, a love of being close and content and little else. He had only distantly acknowledged the pleasantry of it, afterward, to be stroked so tenderly with calloused fingers so accustomed to violence.
Fingers that have now enclosed about his own and lead him onward- deeper into the house and past the entrance and all its trappings. Unbidden, his gaze wanders- seeking further and more about Sarangerel’s home and thus about her. Looking for trinkets, discarded belongings left to linger in forgotten corners, or if it is as desolate and deserted as his own imagined home to be should he have ever deigned to have one instead of drifting from one temporary place of lodging to the next.]
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⤞acoldwind (pt. 2: the two towers)
It's naught you wouldn't expect and talking isn't my preference.
[but in a second text:] You helped. Truth be told, I'd rather have taken my time but the twins' timing is as calamitous as ever.
[ooc: no worries, tag what you want and feel free to drop or come back as you need. o7]
💙
[ And then, because he’s deigned to put his guard down and admit something personal, she feels she should probably return the show of trust with one of her own. It makes her ridiculously happy to know what he’s told her; she wants to similarly make him happy. ]
I care little what we do. I only wish to see you for a while.
[ It’s as close as she’ll get right now to admitting she misses him. ]
no subject
Within the bell. [is all he sends in response after a lengthy moment of consideration. in the back of his mind is the soft warning of another weakness being constructed by his own folly... but like a fool he cannot find it within himself to care.]
[ooc: and then the mental image of him doing an escort fate only to pick that mf'er up and sprint]
lmao the mental image tho
Great. Now she’s nervous for some reason. While Ze contends with finishing up the work he’s taken on, Sarangerel contends with making sure her little cottage in the Lavender Beds is tidy and that she herself is presentable. She probably worries a bit too much about her own appearance, because she changes her outfit about four times before she decides her blush-colored nightgown and her thick night robe is enough. She does, after all, plan to make Ze relax and rest. She even prepares a small meal for him. ]
we've all thought it
It's there, on the steps to her home that he hesitates, wondering if he ought to have made an effort to neaten his appearance before arriving. If he ought to have brought something...
But in the end he chooses stubbornness. She had to have known he'd be finishing up one task or another- no rest for the likes of them and such. It's how he reasons away the nerves, knocking on her door and settling for propping his free hand on his hip to avoid the temptation to fold his arms and appear even more a foul-tempered lowlife.
His regrets are mounting.]
okay i’m back
Take your greaves and boots off here though. It will be less to clean up if you do not track everywhere you have been inside the house.
[ She gestures to the mat and armor stand placed beside the doorway. Both are clearly not new, but at least there is no evidence of her own past messes on either still. The house is tidy. While Ze works on his boots, she steps behind him to remove his coat. Dusty as it is from the road, it can use a wash, but they can tend to that later. For now, it’ll go on the coat hanger. ]
You arrived sooner than I had expected. Were you already in the forest?
it's me. in the void.
It lasts only a moment, that hesitation, for his stubborn pride has always won the day- even when in doing so it is a detriment. He steps inside and stares straight ahead, fixating on a point on the wall as she speaks. A part of him thinks to mention that removing his footwear will hardly do her impression of his current state any favors... but she would have known- and likely would have been the same at one point- so he does not say anything, making to oblige. And when she moves behind him to take his coat, he cannot help the flicker of tension that slithers down his spine, ears flicking up and backwards before straightening again. That he is ill-at-ease is obvious, that he is fighting to maintain a facade regardless even moreso.]
Escorting a merchant to Gridania. [Is all he grunts as he undoes his gloves so she can take his jacket without issue, wincing at the unexpected soreness that arises from the motion.] Wanted someone to keep the Ixali at bay. [He adds as a gracious point of elaboration, choosing not to add he ended up all but abandoning them as soon as the gate and the Wailers protecting it were within sight, payment be damned.] Not that we saw so much as a scratch mark in the dirt. [He mutters in afterthought as he finally drags his footwear off and sets it aside as bid, leaving his gloves draped in the heap with less care than he ought to have.] Where can I wash up?
is it cozy there? also do I owe you any other tags?
The notion that he might have been so eager to see her as to rush his last contract doesn’t enter her mind.
She allows him to dress down as he wishes to, without judging him or tsk’ing at him. Instead, when she comes back around to stand in front of him and he asks her about washing up, she reaches out to take his hands in hers, coming close enough to smell the dirt and sweat on him easily. ]
Slow down… Come.
[ She gives him a small reassuring smile and turns away then to lead him through the small house by the hand to the bathroom. She saw him wince earlier. Thankfully, in addition to a shower, she has a spacious bath in which he can soak his aching muscles. ]
I can wash your hair for you. If you’d like.
no it is damp and gross. :(
She, unnerves him, in a way both vexing and humbling.]
Terrified I’ll botch the job? [The reply is as light as he can make it, thinking back to their shared night in Ishgard when she took to finger-combing his hair with a tenderness that did not belong in the early stages of this evolution of their relationship. He had pitted it to post-coital euphoria, a love of being close and content and little else. He had only distantly acknowledged the pleasantry of it, afterward, to be stroked so tenderly with calloused fingers so accustomed to violence.
Fingers that have now enclosed about his own and lead him onward- deeper into the house and past the entrance and all its trappings. Unbidden, his gaze wanders- seeking further and more about Sarangerel’s home and thus about her. Looking for trinkets, discarded belongings left to linger in forgotten corners, or if it is as desolate and deserted as his own imagined home to be should he have ever deigned to have one instead of drifting from one temporary place of lodging to the next.]